No Evidence of Recurring Disease

I can breathe yet another sigh of relief. My doctor called this morning; my CT scan was clear. No evidence of recurring disease!! WHOO-HOO!!! Thank God in Heaven.

I had a chance to read the report. No lymphoma. Lymph nodes behaving. Scar tissue still just scar tissue. Possible lung scarring which I’ll talk to my doc about. But there’s no cancer!

Everyone I knew was incredibly excited; one of my co-workers almost broke her chair. However, I think people were confused by my lack of an effusive reaction. There were no shouts, no excitement, no hootin’ and hollerin’ from my end. Honestly, I was just too relieved then to be excited. I had been a ball of anxiety for a few days by that point, and I was just thankful that I could breathe. I think part of me might just be a little apprehensive about getting too excited about these things, given that there’s always a chance that it’s all temporary. But right now, I’m just so glad I don’t have cancer again.

My usual eloquence about these things eludes me today, so I’ll end here with this: I’m happy. I’m relaxed, I’m relieved…this is good.